...what now?

......now what? my turkish class ended in may. my turkish tutoring ended this week... so now the only 2 scheduled things i have during a week are ETT on wednesday nights and house group on sundays.... i need to figure out what i am doing here and how best to use my time. hoping to get on campus on a weekly basis... ask for that for me, too.

yesterday i read the whole book of james on a bus ride. it's short, but it's intense. and convicting. but it's packed full of so much Truth. an older man was sitting beside me and most of the time he was looking over my shoulder. a little awkward, but maybe he knows English....?

i'm learning more and more that i need to be seeking and fighting for Truth in my own life every day. sometimes it's easier to remember than others. and then there's times when my old self tries to tear me away from the person He's changing me into. i am selfish. i am prideful. i am sinful and dirty and stained. but praise Him that He sent Jesus into the world to make things right. things are not how they are supposed to be. i am not how i am supposed to be. but God, in His infinite wisdom and abounding grace, sent Jesus into the world to rescue it. to provide a way. to bring peace. and love. and reconciliation. to make all things new. even me. all things.

He has reminded me of His simple goodness a lot lately. He IS good. and His mercy endures forever. forever.