tonight.......

it threatens me.
it shocked me.
God convinced me. No man could.
i want to go there!
we are hurting ourselves.
does it match what you've been taught?
i have to tell you.

if you have not heard, i am now a proud aunt to Jackson Avery Brashier... He was born Thursday, April 23 at 11:31 am via emergency c-section. He is 7 lbs. 5 ounces and 19 1/2 inches long... And, is the most beautiful little boy ever.... :)





He has a lot of funny faces..

tulips......... :)

today i chased tulips. i found them 2 hours from my house, yes in the same city. the best part is that it took FOUR hours to get home. gotta love traffic.

besides that, it was a beautiful day in a beautiful park with more tulips than i have seen in my entire life combined.... gorgeous.

sometimes we wish for things that can never be. things that should never be. sometimes we trust our hearts only to find our hearts are deceitful above all else. time and time again. same thing. different way. then we are reminded there is a better way. a better way. and sometimes we so easily forget he. has. redeemed. us. [from much]. i have it on my wrist as a constant reminder and sometimes that's not even enough.

ah, antalya....

so i am sitting at a beach on the mediterranean soaking up the sun.. you have to catch it at the right hours, otherwise it's a bit chilly... i have yet to get in the water, other than ankle deep, but tomorrow, i plan to swim in one of the pools... some people i work with have a conference here this week and i get the pleasure of helping with childcare.... trust me it IS a pleasure, especially considering i am HERE... it's so gorgeous... only 4 days, but it's my longest time to be out of the city and away from all the noise... i haven't really heard the sea, even though i live right on it....

last week i got more rest than i expected, which was a good change from the crazy month before.... and this is wonderful too... it's amazing how long you can go without true peace and quiet... it's quite overwhelming....

i think our brains and our bodies and our souls really need quiet more than we give them quiet... somewhere deep inside us there is this part of of that screams for quiet but we are too busy or loud to hear it, notice it, or care...